I am listening to Amy Lee's "Broken" that song actually speaks on behalf of me, so I love that song. everyone's got that precise song which describes their moment of feeling. I am full of unexpressed feelings.. no one to talk to so I am basically finding myself indulged in songs, movies etc. Movies also sometimes speaks our story. You wanna be that person in the movie.. you wanna be that lover that mother that someone who cares.. But its just a fictitious story.. not a real one..
I am so stuck with my work life and I don't have time to think for myself.. I am trying to find out what i can do to make me happy and where I am headed. I do not see any use of my life because all what i have done in my life is going to classes.. and then going to work.. there are no memories that i have for me.. I'm so stuck with this gloomy cloudy feeling that i am old.. i have not done what which needs to be done at the proper time of my life? I have no memories to turn to except for the few things I have forced myself into during last two years. I have no relationship, no one to turn to and say "I have lot of things going on my mind and I feel like shutting myself from this world" . Also the people today are so materialistic that they only expect life in things that they can use rather than be happy with. I try so hard to be happy with lot of materials but each time I buy something new i feel that it is something which gets my work done not which makes me happy.. what makes me happy is the fact that I get my work done.
What shall I do to address this situation? how can i put myself into situations which i be happy which i be someone who thinks I am worth living? i only try to indulge in things that makes me just go with What I do? The only different thing that i am forcing myself to do is more higher education. I mean who does higher education for fun. Its hard .. its tough.. its just something which makes you qualified.. what do I have to do to make me happy?
I am so stuck with my work life and I don't have time to think for myself.. I am trying to find out what i can do to make me happy and where I am headed. I do not see any use of my life because all what i have done in my life is going to classes.. and then going to work.. there are no memories that i have for me.. I'm so stuck with this gloomy cloudy feeling that i am old.. i have not done what which needs to be done at the proper time of my life? I have no memories to turn to except for the few things I have forced myself into during last two years. I have no relationship, no one to turn to and say "I have lot of things going on my mind and I feel like shutting myself from this world" . Also the people today are so materialistic that they only expect life in things that they can use rather than be happy with. I try so hard to be happy with lot of materials but each time I buy something new i feel that it is something which gets my work done not which makes me happy.. what makes me happy is the fact that I get my work done.
What shall I do to address this situation? how can i put myself into situations which i be happy which i be someone who thinks I am worth living? i only try to indulge in things that makes me just go with What I do? The only different thing that i am forcing myself to do is more higher education. I mean who does higher education for fun. Its hard .. its tough.. its just something which makes you qualified.. what do I have to do to make me happy?
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